Anxiety is Conscious Evolution Under Resistance

To my friend Dylan and the many others whom I know struggle with this issue:

Quick note to directing anxiety and poor mental chatter:

The mind is as infinite of a thing as we humans can comprehend, and these days with massive amounts of potential mental input all around us, it is quite easy to allow it to go the path of ANXIETY and other forms of over stress. Doctors and other people who treat “disorders” will prescribe medication (sadly pharmaceuticals and other items that only quell the “disorder”), but this will never SOLVE the issue,

the following will:

Since the mind is infinite, and destruction/mismanagement an “easier” short term path than construction, the path of least resistance will lead us tumbling down the rabbit hole bouncing violently off its edges the whole way down (Disney never really illustrated that bit). What to do about all this toil and trouble?? I have found three relatively easy and completely free ways to be the most helpful and constructive without having to try and FORCE your mind and body to do what you want, or worse be beaten to disease and death by your own mind.

1. Pluck the thought and replace it with a new one.

Since the ol’ braniac isn’t going any place any time soon, you might as well learn to train the littel bugga. Catch yourself having anxious thoughts and see if you can mentally remove them and replace them with a better one. If the issue persists, do your best to be compassionate to your thoughts and perhaps even ask your own mind, “What are these thoughts for?” See what intuitively comes back. Else, you can practice shifting your thoughts from problem based to solution based which can be ease as;

2. Take a few focused FULL breaths in through your nose and out through your mouth and focus on that instead.

Since over stress is the number one killer, and all of that stress spawns simply from sorts of over activity, physically, mentally, emotionally and/or spiritually/energetically, the number one enabler to yourself would have to be its opposite; the single activity that sustains our life-force/soul-body and tethers it to our physical body, that being The Breath. Through 30-60 seconds of pure focused breath [you can do it], you will enable ease over your entire nervous system, be where you are in the present moment rather than in your head someplace that currently does not actually exist (“What If Land”, the poorly perceived past, and the unknown future), get into a more neutral and calm energy, and thus clean-clear yourself of all anxious energy. The trick to this technique is not just doing it, but making a habit out of doing it. You will find barriers and even motivation to not practice this (“Why brush my teeth if they’re only going to get dirty again?”), but practicing cleaning clearing yourself of anxious energy in the long run will do MUCH MORE than just get you back on an even keel. And when all else fails, give yourself your own secret weapon:

3. Ask yourself, “Can I just be ok with this experience I am having and allow myself to have it?”

The answer to this is obviously, “Yes”, but how often do you really just give yourself permission to have all the bullshit that runs through your head to just run rampant? Think about containing kids jacked up on sugar and caffeine (that you let them have, by the way); will it do you much good to even try to get them in order, or to just put them in a place where it’s ok for them to go ape shit and wait for them to crash? When we give ourselves permission to be an anxious mess, something magical happens; you cease to be an anxious mess. Because the resistance to the anxious energy you were offering it only served to exacerbate the problem! Now you may not get rid of your anxiety, but this practice will take the edge off AT LEAST.

Dear reader, we have reached the true purpose of this blog post that transcends anxious energy to the source of what anxiety is; a resistance of the fact that you are an imperfect being trying to be something you’re not: perfect. If you would just be ok with who you are, in that exact moment of not being ok with what you are experiencing, you will stand miles higher than even some of the most [financially] successful people of all time. For it is like the child mind; a child does not fret at not being able to walk and talk, though it does feel the pressure, or stress to change. Once the child is ok to simply be calm and allow itself to learn, before you know it, it’s walking, talking and beyond.

Bless up.

Unity Open Heart Center

The Unity Open Heart Center - 1027 SE M St., Grants Pass, OR 97526

The Unity Open Heart Center - 1027 SE M St., Grants Pass, OR 97526

The new paradigm, nay, the timeless paradigm is upon us! Everything in which I have been dreaming about is coming true, and in some wonderfully surprising ways! Today I share with you what has happened in the first year I have been a part of the Unity Church, now renamed the Unity Open Heart Center, of Grants Pass, Oregon.

This is how I came to it:

Almost 3 years ago, I was walking along the footbridge that goes over the Rogue River into Reinhart Volunteer Park with a close friend of mine and I received what I can best label as my first ever *Vision*. In that vision I received in full detail the creation of a three story black glass pyramid that would be put in the place of the American Legion Baseball field; also the new location of the center of Grants Pass (or whatever we will rename the city) once the new bridge is put in that will extend Lincoln Rd. across the Rogue River to just west of the Josephine County Fairgrounds - this will be part of a complete reanimating of the city into something grandiose.

The pyramid will be named The Academy of the Heart, and will be a free school, performance hall and healing center for all the local, global and universal community. For more information on it, check out the Facebook page:

About a year after the vision was drawn out, I was drawn to do some spiritual public speaking lectures, so I reached out to a man I knew did relative and he directed me to the Unity Church of Grants Pass’s “Global Oneness Day” (October 22, 2017) where I would do a presentation about my life, my understandings and my goals/visions. With adamant invitation, I joined my first ever congregation with them and proceeded with the momentum that had been building. Little did I know at the time that I had already acquired the building’s original creator, Dorthy Leon, “Way of Mastery” book when I first returned to Grants Pass (my home city) in 2013 recieved from the first ever spiritual group who looked me in the eyes and collectively recited, “We see the Christ in you.” - a truly astonishing moment with them, The Circle of the Radient Heart. I digress...

President Robert Pelle and myself just finished with painting the new front door.

President Robert Pelle and myself just finished with painting the new front door.

The Unity Church space was stagnant, as still much of our local spiritual community currently is, and it was filled with low and rather disharmonic vibration with only a small handful of folks truly desiring to expand themselves, but not having the capacity to push through their fears of socially acceptable standards (even though there were already plenty of hypocrisy and lack of application of their own Five Christ Principles within the congregation), so I was welcomed in, made myself at home, and began effortlessly moving my energy around and changing things. When I threw away all the styrafoam dishes without permission is when the resistance finally began to get frustrated by my presence; by the time we had done a late spring cleaning to clean and clear over half of the hoarded, unused and worthless materials in the church, so too did over half the congregation leave. Now we are on the fast track path of reanimation for the whole space; inside and out.

Mudra Meditation is just one of many epic activities we practice at Unity.

Mudra Meditation is just one of many epic activities we practice at Unity.

The President of the church and the Narcotics Anonymous group that meet at Unity for a meeting once a week, were amongst the primary who assisted in Unity’s renovation; a repainting of the building just took place and by spring we will have a big community garden planted. 

Now I am reintroducing a yoga class and a QiGong class, creating a New Warriors of Grants Pass Men’s Group, and adding a Josephine County Co-Ed Co-Creators group, a Reiki healing session and a Unity Consciousness and Spirit Science class that follows the Sunday Service (10:30-12:00pm) that will be 1:30-3:00. Talk about high vibes! The round space itself is already a place in which two Earth lay lines meet; so She is happier than ever now with people making full use.

Current Schedule of Classes. Plus I have just added a basics to fire spinning class Wednesdays at 5:30pm.

Current Schedule of Classes. Plus I have just added a basics to fire spinning class Wednesdays at 5:30pm.

Come and see us! There’s something for everyone! We’re also wanting more teachers and practitioners to add to the mix! And for young families, we have a kids room! Kids may also participate in whatever activities as well - remember, I said *Timeless* paradigm. :)

The address is 1027 SE M St., Grants Pass, Oregon, 97526.

Bless up!

The Pressures and Pleasures of Yoga

I'm often surprised to discover how few people in my local culture know what Yoga is, or even what the word itself means. The most common responses I get when I ask is that it is, "Stretching", "Relaxing", "Posing", and the closest guess, "Meditating". Even when I test the local yoga teachers, I get mostly a dodgy response, exposure of insecurities, victim based perspective, or false pride/righteousness, and all together exemplifying superficial levels of what true yoga is. Overall, I'm not particularly worried about the culture, for within my discoveries I know, feel, and trust that Nature and the patterning ways of the universe, will always have It's way and balance out the collective by whatever means necessary. Besides, "Energy flows where attention goes", being concerned and projecting problems isn't really going to help anyone out; at least not directly. I work/play towards a big "level up" of our species and discover how to integrate our internal and external selves into a solution based reality through what Yoga truly is.

Yoga, in it's wholeness, is an ancient study of Self, that being, the mind, the body and the breath/life force and the infinite discovery of how what we discover outside of the body, is due to what is happening inside the body, and vice-versa. What we do is find positions to put our body in and then breathe and be calm in the pressures we experience allowing for release; this helps to open and heal areas that are hard to get into, and to release stored up emotional baggage held in the muscles/connective tissue. To most this seems to be a terrifying notion, as we have become much of a culture of "wrongdoers" who consume and pollute the planet and inspire other cultures to follow suit for the sake of the ownership of stuff. So yeah, I can understand why a lot of people are over intimidated by the practice, but let me in to show you why you should embrace this fear rather than make excuses and fall short of your true potential.

Through Ecstatic Dance, a practice of free-form dancing to music, I discovered after the release of my unserving self consciousness a very real and important truth of the human condition: Be humbled for having tried. OR Be humbled for having never tried. Folks, those are your two and only two choices in life; discover humility through a practice or discover humility without one (usually towards the end of your life when it's too late). Yoga is for getting into your physical, mental, and emotional bodies and discover the depths of how you have been treating yourself and thus allowed yourself into the state you are currently in (don't worry though; it's still ever changing). Some is excusable, most is not. Through a vicious cycle and patterning of escapism and neglect of our true potential, most cannot truly look within and face their inner demons; it's too scary, it's too painful.

But is it really all that scary and painful?

At first, YES. The hardest part of yoga is beginning your practice, getting some momentum behind it and recognizing that Yoga is the practice of being a human being and a moderator of the universe around said human being. If you can get up the mountain, the view is spectacular, magical and truly rewarding; as is the next mountain, and the next and onward to the recognition that life itself is a practice in the balance between pressures (feelings and experiences that don't feel so good, but in one way or another are constructive) and pleasures (feelings and experiences that do feel good, and are not necessarily constructive).

When we recognize that whether we are in the classroom (safe zone/comfort zone) or outside the classroom (danger zone/outside our comfort zone), our yoga practice is always on. You're doing it already; you're already a yogi, just maybe have not discovered the importance of a regular internal observation practice.

How we will "save the world" is not through typical means; how we will save the world is by each of us, individually, discovering our ability to influence our entire universe at large by choosing to practice Perspective Change. There will be ups and there will be downs, but change your perspective 180 degrees and find that there are downs about your ups and ups about your downs; this is the key to a consistent state of "Nirvana" - life is a process of going with the flow and seeing the best in all things. It's a, "Whew! What a relief!" in discovering that we are all relative, all connected and all in love; be it platonic, romantic or some other form, yoga and other internal observing arts are a way to get in closer touch with who you truly are at the deepest level: A Conscious Creator amongst many other Conscious Creators.

Fire Dancers

We as human beings are relative to the Earth, spiraling through the universe. We are a cool body with sphere’s of flame moving all around us. Keeping the right amount of space between the heat and us is what brings harmony. It is a dazzling display, fraught with chaos under just enough control to keep order; sometimes it gets out of hand and we’re set aflame (rarely is it serious). When we make mistakes we hope that our audience may not even notice; see that it’s just part of the show. The best performers will flow a mistake right into the next trick; invent something new. So we are not mere fire dancers, but symbolic emulators of the universe that creates us. Open your eyes and see love and danger rolled into one.


Some would say it’s risky; yeah, sure, being human is risky. We say, let’s commit ourselves to the risk and smile in its presence. In the long run, we find that this choice is the safer option. That’s not to say we don’t respect the risk; we do. With our foundation in yoga (mind-body-breath union) and qigong (energy work), we are able to better understand our body and the bodies we choose to orbit around us. When we set ourselves on fire, it is not a curse, but a lesson that we brought on ourselves. Everything is a learning opportunity. Spinning objects that are on fire makes learning a necessity.


Though both performing and teaching, we aim to fill the dark with light, the cold with heat, and the silence with noise. This isn’t a job to get rich; this is a calling to BE rich. We hope that you will support us in our endeavor to make a memory that will burn in the hearts and minds of all who witness.


Why Yoga? My Re-"Union"

If I could promise you a growing level of abundance and bliss for the entirety of your life, would you take my offer? If I guaranteed your success, would you be willing to take a leap of faith and go a little outside of your comfort zone in order to pursue your dreams? I am confident that I can guide you to a better life experience, though I can only show you the door, it will be you who has to walk through it and continue onto the path to the place you desire to go. I’m not here to tell you what you should or should not do; this presentation is not about you, it is about me. It is the illustration of how I learned to unify and harmonize the three things that make life possible and thus make life grand. Those are the body, the mind and the breath. This is the story of what Yoga is to me.

I used to believe disorders were real, and my mind was plenty capable to find the evidence to support their being. I used to believe in conspiracy theories, that things like surgery and pharmaceuticals were reasonable solutions, and that anxiety and depression were bad things. I used to believe that there was a right way to live. Who knew that a little focused breath in motion would clean and clear the useless jargon that was holding back my life’s true potential. And in a nutshell, that’s all yoga is; focused breath in motion to assist in cleaning and clearing our perspective on command in the aims of continuing to check and balance our pursuit of happiness from the inside, out. I learned the truth if that I simply kept a slow and steady breath, a proper posture, and a healthy/constructive mindset, then everything would fall perfectly into place. Sounds pretty magical doesn’t it? Perhaps hard to believe? That is only because we have allowed ourselves to be influenced to be overly skeptical thus closing off the mind to new creative actions and ultimately to a life that is over serious and tragic. You see, Yoga is about turning life inside out, by focusing on our internal happenings and learning about the process of what creates our external reality.

Let me offer you a free sample; perhaps your first lesson in real yoga (not western-style yoga that only focuses on stretching the physical body). Take a moment, and relax your eyes. Now, notice how you are feeling. Observe your thoughts and your current state of emotion without needing to judge it; just notice how you are right now. … Now, take a moment to focus on your natural breath and posture without changing it; just seeing it as it is. … Ok. Now, bring your back away from your chair by moving forward on your seat. With an exhale out the mouth, relax the legs completely. Starting at your hips, through your groin, thighs, knees, lower legs, ankles, and feet. Now inhale through your nose and gently flex your naval in towards your spine and pull your abdomen up away from your tailbone. Exhale out your mouth. Inhale again deeply through your nose pulling your chest high. Exhale completely, out your mouth and release your shoulders; feel them melt down your sides as your arms and hands become heavy and relaxed. Then inhale again through the nose, rise up with your crown as if there were an invisible cord attached to it reeling you higher towards the sky. Then slowly exhale and neatly stack your head over shoulders and shoulders over hips. Take a moment to observe your breath and posture now and experience how you feel. Likely more confident, more energized, and more relaxed, all at once. In less than 2 minutes, the unionization, or yoga, of your body, mind and breath has made a significant difference that will likely move into the rest of your day’s experience.

So why yoga? Because it is the fundamental practice of being a human being. It has next to nothing to do with a religion and more to do with a way of life; of living. Yoga improves not just flexibility, but stamina, muscle tone, healing time, constructive mindset, calm composure and an ease to the challenges that life offers. If you are interested, I teach public and private lessons that will immediately increase your quality of life; men, women and children alike. You can’t knock it, because you’ve just tried it. I encourage you to take the next step; invest in your internal self so that your influence of your external world will become that much more remarkable. Namaste, or in layman’s terms, the light in me acknowledges and respects the light in you. Thank you.

What is "Oneness"?

What is Oneness?

The shortest answer I can offer is, "This is."

Though I assume, dear reader, that is too broad an answer, even though I'm actually being very specific. I won't ask you to open your mind in order to better understand this post because I'm well aware that it cannot be closed; though one can resist and cause oneself much pain trying to stay attached to a thing that one cannot be attached to. But I digress; lets start off with a pretty picture shall we?

What I hold in my hands are two entirely different, yet practically the same, images. In my left hand, I hold an energy mapping of the entire universe as we know it, in my right, a mapping of the human brain. This image, in itself, leads me to believe that our consciousness is relative to that of the universe. Now please allow me to bring up some other, easy to follow points to both the spiritualist and the scientist in the speculation that All is One.

Firstly, one for both sides of the coin. The air we breathe. The air we breathe, we call "Prana" or "Life Force" in Yoga (which is a practice of unionizing mind, body and breath, and has to do more with way of life than a religion). We can sustain life in our bodies without food for some time, without water for a few days, but we cannot live without the breath for more than a few minutes. All of us, people, animals and plants are breathing in and out this life force and recycling it for one another. The air you are breathing in and out right now has come and gone through the systems of countless others and will go on to countless more. We all share this abundance now and forever.

This life force stems beyond just the breath to the water and the food we consume. All of it comes first from the Earth's matter which came from the galaxy's matter, which came from the universe's matter, which came/comes from... One's perception. Everything is shared and recycled and those who do not share nor recycle tend to move towards an over stressed or ended life (in the separation that I am not He/She/Them/They). To be [One] or not to be [Zero], that is the question.

On the science side, quantum physics now theorizes that everything is energy simply slowed down to the point of having a physical reality. If we could (and we can) look beyond the spectrum that the typical human eye picks up, we could see the "energy soup" we all are constantly residing in and interacting with. In the fullness of the unseen spectrum, we are countless energy particles and waves that are not separate from one another but are clearly inter-connected.

Alright, how about One more example? With 100% of everything (1.00 = 100%) in the universe, each One of us has One point of constantly changing view, and most, if not all of us, believe ourselves to be the righteous One. EveryOne has a perfectly logical reasoning as to why One believes as One does; every One. When One experiences reality, One decides (with or without training; which is why I am dedicating my life to teaching things like yoga, qigong, and more) to pick out certain details that define themselves and their universe around (and by universe I mean all that one perceives in the single One moment of Now). Mostly we look at what seems like outside ourselves and make judgments or hopefully just observations, on what is going on out there. But remember, there are 7 billion Ones! And that's just the people! We can only ever focus on a tiny percentage of what is actually going in the world. I don't care how many subscriptions you read or TV you watch, One knows very little about the bigger, constantly changing, picture.

Life can be complicated, but it can also be so incredibly simple. The war that is being fought on the front (outside the body) is being perceived by the universe within. If One is ready to end the war and have universal peace, then all One must do is begin observing within; the thoughts and feelings that may or may not turn into actions and/or a belief system. We are All One and we create ourselves either by choice and taking responsibilities for our own personal universes, or not by choice, by chance. I highly encourage you to go find yourself a teacher (or rather a guide, Oneself is always the teacher) of the internal arts (yoga, meditation, qigong, etc.) and be sure that that person gives you more than just a physical workout.

Truly, all must be unionized into One functioning being; a mind, a body and a breath that connects. The God/energy that creates me recognizes the God/energy that creates you. How about we work together (as we already are and will forever be) and create something that is absolutely Phenomenal and Out of this World!

It is only now, once, forever.